Ancient Light by John Banville (The Cleave Trilogy #3)

'Billy Gray was my best friend and I fell in love with his mother.'
Alexander Cleave, an actor who thinks his best days are behind him, remembers his first unlikely affair as a teenage boy in a small town in 1950s Ireland- the illicit meetings in a rundown cottage outside town; assignations in the back of his lover's car on sunny morningsandrain-soaked afternoons. And with these early memories comes something sharper and much darker - the more recent recollection of the actor's own daughter's suicide ten years before.
Ancient Lightis the story of a life rendered brilliantly vivid- the obsession and selfishness of young love and the terrifying shock of grief. It is a dazzling novel, funny, utterly pleasurable and devastatingly moving in the same moment.